Hey, guess who broke into her house?

i finally cleaned all that gunk off my page... apparently there's a group of "neo-ontonauts" trying to hunt down my old colleagues. my old boss is there and everything... well, i tried telling him. if he and his gang want to go running after a bunch of dead people, i can't stop them... i hope they at least know i'm me. why does everyone think i'm a faker? :-(

oh, one more thing. there was a link at the bottom of the page one of those weirdos tried to sneak in. i moved it here so you don't have to go searching for it. it's pretty cool, i guess... i don't know why they had to hide it? anyway, i also linked the neo-ontonauts' page in the new header up top so you can look at them and see, uh...

well, uh, you'll see? it's really something, ahahah. 'til next time.

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hey spotlight of quests. your quest today is to look at rabbitsim. your reward is remembergrist or something. or ill just draw you again. you like being drawn

lowkey someone already did a quest fill but i forgot to award them the grist and its been a few days now do u think they forgot. if youre reading this and you did it hi sorry about that. ill get it to you. im busy doing princess activities

so we all think threads are kind of stupid right? like. if someone went and searched all my messages on the so called zampanio discord theyd see a bunch of bullshit i didnt even write. because of threads. because everyone has to hide in the fucking walls. what are we doing. why are we so obsessed with the marked. its been like a billion years can we all move on? does anyone want a quest to stop giving a fuck about all that shit? 1 million remembergrist reward. thats a joke. but im good for it

oh shit nevermind i fixed it im cracked at this website thing.

i made a /diary on this site a little while ago. then i broke it. maybe it wasn't a good idea to include it, anyway... i guess i'll have to find another way to show it off someday. i'll have to find somewhere kind of obvious since i don't like to hide stuff in the code. that would mean i have to learn how to code... and i like using other people's perfectly good webpages, thank you very much!

did you find your name? i keep a few spares around in case anyone falls for it. everyone falls for it. you'll want to fall for it, eventually.

let me know if you're stuck and i'll give you a hint. call it an advance on your first quest.

had an idea. want a quest?

There was a time when I thought I’d be the one streaming Zampanio. I used to be involved in content creation, as it were… and that was what I could bring to the table. I knew some audio editing, I had some improvisational skill… why couldn’t I be the Streamer of Zampanio? It wouldn’t be the first title to be shared. There’s two Survivors. And I’d get to be a star. Wouldn’t that be something?

That was never going to happen. I was stupid for thinking it would. What, was it going to just materialize? Would I suddenly have the time, the energy, the space, the privacy to run a show in the middle of that awful house I used to live in? Was I expecting the seas to part and allow me to stroll directly forward into an audience, showering me with nothing but praise, desperate to hold onto my words, desperate to see my perspective?

I think about those days and laugh. I wanted all the attention, as if that’s how Zampanio works. I wanted the Eyes, as if that’s how you get them to look at you. I wanted to be JR’s favorite, as if they were ever the one who steered this ship. I didn’t write. I didn’t record. I lied in my bed and poured myself cup after cup of soju and wished to be a star, and then nothing happened because I didn’t have what it took. It wasn’t in the cards. Isn’t that funny?

I’m happy for you. Really, I am. I want someone to do it. First, it was the Sharholder, and now you’re taking up the mantle now that she’s… like me, I guess. Haha. The rot comes for us all, doesn’t it? First for our ephemera, then for our attention, then…

being perceived.

lesbiab thoughts

i wonder if truth would like me.

i wonder if the closer would like me.

i wonder if khana would like me.

i wonder if alt would like me.

i wonder if-- no, i shan't say. akjdgkjsagdkj

i wonder if wanda would like me.

i wonder if ab would like me.

i can whip you up a new quest!! i want to start giving out quests again.... hey, if you're worried you forgot it, don't. it's not your job to remember stuff! that's my business. lemme see what i can find in the old archives, okay? just give me a little time and keep your eye on the page and i'll have something for you. :-)

that's all the questions i got for now. i hope i get more of them soon! eheheh.

i could say something glib about the rot here. would that be funny?

a new branch sprouted today....

today, a pretty girl on the internet started growing a branch of her own.... but something really weird happened. jr showed up, and started directing her everywhere.... i guess i don't give out the quests anymore? that's funny. i bet roz would've been so mad if she saw this whole interaction, haha. what a weird friday it's been!

she's talking about industry plants in the stream as i'm writing this. maybe roz was an industry plant. i guess i have plenty of time to reflect on stuff like that now. maybe bones was more of an industry plant? i dunno. um....

....here i am, thinking about her again. i'm supposed to remember and move on. which i guess means i should get a new team together? i got a whole bunch of asks on the discord the other day, so i should really answer those. maybe i'll find a teammate that way? or maybe the streamer'll wanna be in my new squad. we wouldn't be the ontonauts anymore.... but we'd be something, right? eheheheh. robbster, what do you think?

i wonder what the target's up to.

hello streamer!

someone new's looking around again.... that's so exciting. i wonder how long she's going to keep her name?

well, either way, i hope you're having a happy friday, robbster klaw. and i hope 289pikmin learns to play the game eventually. i'm rooting for you, bud.

Zampanio is a very good game. You should play it.

weltcome to my new home!

it's just me now. so.... that's neat! that said, it does get kinda lonely around here without all the everyone, so go ahead and ask me basically whatever. pop your questions in discord and ping me, and i'll answer 'em over here, 'k?

i missed you all a lot, actually. it's good to be back. more memories coming soon. and maybe even some old quests. you all used to love quests, right? hehehehe.

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